My boyfriend is perfection. I found true love , thank you god

Ever have one of those moments where you are sad and you want to be hugged and comforted but you know that’s out of the question ? It’s one of those moments right now . Where you just want to be told that no matter what you are beautiful despite how disgusting you might feel in the moment .. It’s one of those moments when I shouldn’t even think of the thoughts in my head it’s one of those .

I wish you weren’t on my mind all day long and I wish I was on yours I wish you couldn’t go to sleep without hearing my voice no matter how impossible it is I wish you never let me out the door with a kiss and a whisper saying I love you. I wish I was your world and everything else was just in it. I wish that you feel what I feel for you. I wish you wouldn’t be able to stare at me without smiling I wish the thought of me ran through your head constantly . I wish everytime I walked away you came to grab me. I wish you hold me and never let me go I wish you’d kiss me on my forehead and tell me everything’s going to be okay . Maybe it’s too much to ask for but id give you the world if I could

Maybe valentines day isn’t important . Maybe it doesn’t mean much to others . Maybe it’s time to drop all of our expectations for that one day…. Maybe we should embrace love and maybe we should embrace that certain people deserve that love . Why not send the love of your life flowers everyday not just valentines day why not tell her you love her constantly instead of that one day when not shower her with hugs and kisses every minute you see her instead of every Minute that one day .Maybe you won’t get to tell her on valentines day and today is your last day with her what will you tell her then ?

I don’t know if not being able to go to your grave makes me a coward but I sure feel like one. I wish I could just get up and be like I’m going today no excuses. I’m always near it, I always ride past it. I need some of your inner strength …. I want to I really do but what if i Break? Who will pick up the pieces ?

I really do hope you think I’m the one because I know you are. No one can make me laugh or smile just as easily as making me mad like you do. I don’t feel safe or at peace with anyone else. I don’t want to be someone who needs someone so I’m trying very hard to stop needing you. I just hope your love for me never burns out.